I’ve had furious squalls come up over my life. I’ve felt in the dark, with the rain pouring and thunder ringing and wind whipping. I’ve felt distant from God, not hearing from Him the way I’ve expected, the way I’ve anticipated. I’ve felt no sense of control, emotions raging and heaviness weighing. I’ve had thoughts spiraling and doubts suffocating. I’ve asked, so many times, “Teacher, don’t you care?”
His response was something like this:
Teacher? Is that all I am to you? You’re worried about this storm, Jen, but I’m worried about souls.
You have the whole story, you know how this ends.
I went to the cross for you. For you! What more could I ever do to prove that I care?
You are not in this storm alone.
Stay by me.
I will call peace when the time is right.
We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you. – 2 Chronicles 20:12
I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety. – Psalm 4:8
In you I trust, O my God… No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame. – Psalm 25:2-3
My eyes are ever on the Lord, for only he will release my feet from the snare. – Psalm 25:15
I will counsel you with my loving eye on you. – Psalm 32:8.
You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you. – Isaiah 26:3
O Lord, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress. – Isaiah 33:2
Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. – Colossians 4:2
God put this verse on my heart recently, and it’s been surprisingly difficult to be in prayer and be thankful when I’d much rather deal with things another way. But if God is my Lord, then let me lift my hands up, releasing all of my self and all of my stuff to him, and willing to receive whatever it is he has for me. May I stay watchful, prayerful for eyes to see things His way. And may I never stop thanking Him for all he is, all he has done and all he promises yet to do.
Journeying further: Read and pray through Scripture – Psalm 3, Psalm 25, Psalm 96